The new year offers an opportunity for changes. If you have been here before, you may have noticed a couple changes that have already been made to my site. This is my first week in a new series I am starting, Scripture Sunday. Every Sunday, I will be posting a verse that I have been reflecting on. It is with great courage that I am sharing about my faith because I know with conviction comes conflict. The conflict may be with people that may be deterred from reading, or the conflict may be within myself. No matter what, I’m ready to meet it head on.
My word for 2016 is renewal. My years living in the Bible belt and my encounters with megachurches left me with a bitter taste for religion. I have since begun the process of healing from my experiences, but it took a lot to get to this point. Another problem I have to overcome is in my intellectual approach to church. When I became pregnant with Micah, I was just five courses away from my degree in Christian Studies. I listen to sermons and fight my instinct to predict where the sermon is going. It makes it difficult to truly listen when I am determining what I think God wants me to hear. I am trying to find a balance between academia and spiritual learning, and it is definitely a struggle.
Romans 12:2 says Don’t copy the behavior and customs of this world, but let God transform you into a new person by changing the way you think. Then you will learn to know God’s will for you, which is good and pleasing and perfect.
I chose this verse to kick off the new year because it focuses on change and transformation. Paul wrote this in a letter to the Romans as they were establishing the world’s first christian churches. While this letter was intended for spiritual babies, I feel like this verse is applicable to people of every spiritual maturity. Since I wrestle with God over control of my life, I know that I need to change the way I think and act. By relying on the Holy Spirit, I will be able to discern what God’s will is for my life. I hold an untapped potential in my created self. While it scares me to give over complete control, I am also anxious to see where God takes me. I desire that my pursuit for renewal finds me regaining the sense of purpose and vision that I thought my life had when I was in my 20’s. I’m not sure where this year will take me or this blog, but I hope you will come along for the journey.